dear diary..

in the last week...

i have wondered if fantasizing about hurting the dog is considered postpartum depression

fell asleep in line at whole foods and awoke to a man behind me saying "move it or lose it"

sent nick out to buy "the baby whisperer"

ate roughly 1,000 candy hearts

threw a valentines themed bring a dish and come see Ellie pledge class plus date party

got a massage and the knots were back in a record 3 hours

used a baby hat as a breast pad

looked for something that i was holding in my hand

put Elle in her crib for the first time

sent Nick back to work after 10 weeks of paternity leave

wore jeans that have a button and zipper

started shedding

went to vegas for sun and a change of scenery, which allowed me the privilege to nurse and change diapers in some amazing parking lots

overcame my biggest postpartum fear, i may actually have more than one child

oh the boss is calling, at least she is cute, here is a picture for your troubles