3/17/10 confessional

- one of the downstairs bedrooms is currently one nightstand or mirror without a home, load of laundry that i don't feel like folding, and bag of Christmas decorations away from looking like a scene from Hoarders
- i ate half a grapefruit and some cheese for dinner
- i left hummus making dishes in the sink overnight/plus being at work in soapy water and then almost cried when my kitchen smelled like a garlic burp the next day when Katie stopped over
- i miss N the most on Tuesdays
- i am trying to think of my 4 inch by 3 inch bruise+scabs from being bit by a 2.5 yr old as a badge of patience
- when my pilates teacher put my in ideal body position today i felt like a Neanderthal, how screwed up is my posture that when i am in "ideal" posture i feel like a caveman
- today i am trying to convince myself that someday i will have the same good news and exciting first picture
- i wore green today even though i didn't want to
- i had to remind myself at least 3 times today that it is never a 3 yr olds fault that they smell like pee and smoke. they need the same hugs, and even the jcrew pants i bought the day before can be washed of it all