it's a start..

i need to post, i have needed to post for a long time. i need to post our trip to NYC, our trip to Aruba, house projects, all the fun (and not so fun) things happening in my belly, and etc. (i have even considered starting an anonymous blog so that i could write about all of the funny pregnancy symptoms and happenings without having to see family or co-workers the next day.)

anyway here is a start before Housewives of BH starts

today i am 35 weeks pregnant

belly measuring: perfect
weight: college linebacker
blood pressure: 110 something something
feeling: good, tired, sore back and ribs, grateful
swelling: moderate, shoes fit, ankles exist, sometimes wedding ring fits and sometimes it hurts
job status: still working...letting the kids get away with more everyday
chin: still one...well there may be a shadow in some lights
belly button: still an innie
activity: pilates reformer class twice a week, walking the dog around the hood or until i have to pee 3-4 times a week, house chores and marital chores
nursery: crib and changing table in boxes, no paint, nothing put away, still full of office supplies
sleep: right side, left side, bathroom and repeat
skin: no change, except a few red spots recently noticed on sides of belly
appetite: normal, craving carby sweets and pumpkin spice
baby position: ready to launch, she has been head down and ready to roll since 27 weeks
husband: excited, sweet, encouraging, helpful, having a birthday this week

dear diary

i definitely do not have the journal bug and we have not taken a picture every week, so here is my attempt to remember my uteri happenings

5 weeks: 2 pee sticks say PREGNANT

8 weeks: the puking begins

10 weeks: first midwife appt., hear heartbeat

12 weeks: convince nick to go to fetal photos because i still don't believe there is really a baby in there, even though i heard a heartbeat that doesn't guarantee that he/she has a head

14/15 weeks: visit family and friends in PA

16 weeks: she is a girl!

18 weeks: fly to NYC to see Dave Matthews and sweat and swell my way through the city and "wait, i haven't thrown up today or yesterday"

19 weeks: official doctor ultrasound, still a girl, she sucks her thumb and scratches her head the same way oscar does

20 weeks: i popped sometime between NYC and now, sometimes strangers go out on a limb and ask when i am due

21 weeks: 3 week no puke streak ends abruptly and a belly band is needed on a few pairs of pants, most still button under belly

oh my

she is a girl! Husband and I had a feeling from the very beginning that it was a girl. We always thought she... never he or it. Also, a few days before I found out I was pregnant I had a dream about a baby girl!

My mom was convinced that she was a boy and was only buying boy clothes. At 16 weeks we went to fetal photos and they told us she was a girl. My mom decided "he" was just little and she would not return any of the boy clothes until my doctor ultrasound at 19 weeks. A few days before my doctor ultrasound she had me convinced they were going to see a boy and i started picturing a little boy with glasses, he looked a lot like the little boy on jon and kate plus eight.

But alas, she is still a girl!

confession; when we got into the car after the first ultrasound i started to cry, even though i had thought it was a girl, it hit me and i was terrified. just crying, and crying about how scared i was to have a girl because i was not easy on my parents. i was a snot from about 9 to 20. so let's pray she takes after daddy.

memory

scene; midwife's office 15 week apt

nurse: wow, you weigh the same today than you did at 10 weeks, you haven't gained any weight

and then husband looks me up and down with a face that said it all...luckily (for him) the hormones were on his side and i just laughed and said i didn't understand it either

our little p

Before husband checks his google reader and tells me that everyone is going to think I don't love our little 15 week old parasite. I am thrilled, we are thrilled. Yes...he/she was "planned", I can't believe how many people have asked us this. Yes we were "trying" (how disgusting, no one wants to hear about that, except for my pilates class, pledge class, friends or co-workers) but I was still shocked...SHOCKED, because after various Dr. experiences I thought it would take forever and intervention.

Here is the cute little parasite, and how this ultrasound came to be is a whole other story of neurotic.

Just kidding, blogger will not load it right now, I will try it again later.

you didn't know?!

I use to watch TLC's I didn't know I was pregnant in amazement, horror, and disbelief. I caught a few minutes of an episode the other night and felt this at a whole new level I had to turn it off before I hunted down this woman to slap her. How do these women not notice?!
How do they not notice:
-the constant nausea with the no warning gags
-being so tired that you can even fall asleep to The Real Housewives
-pestering your husband and then crying because you are so sorry you were mean, in the same sentence
-your chest hurting so bad that you don't want to go outside because if there is a breeze you will cry
-hair growing out of new places
-throwing up at home, in the car, at work, in parking lots, in bushes, restaurants...
-p'ing every 6
-a canine like sense of smell
-headaches, headaches, headaches
-never going to the bathroom
-your chest tripling in size in a matter of 8 weeks
-not to mention the color change, HELLO

Oh, if you didn't know we are pregnant, but only I am experiencing the "joy". Why can't we share, I would even take 70/30...80/20. Is this still all because Eve ate the apple, have we not paid enough!

3/17/10 confessional

- one of the downstairs bedrooms is currently one nightstand or mirror without a home, load of laundry that i don't feel like folding, and bag of Christmas decorations away from looking like a scene from Hoarders
- i ate half a grapefruit and some cheese for dinner
- i left hummus making dishes in the sink overnight/plus being at work in soapy water and then almost cried when my kitchen smelled like a garlic burp the next day when Katie stopped over
- i miss N the most on Tuesdays
- i am trying to think of my 4 inch by 3 inch bruise+scabs from being bit by a 2.5 yr old as a badge of patience
- when my pilates teacher put my in ideal body position today i felt like a Neanderthal, how screwed up is my posture that when i am in "ideal" posture i feel like a caveman
- today i am trying to convince myself that someday i will have the same good news and exciting first picture
- i wore green today even though i didn't want to
- i had to remind myself at least 3 times today that it is never a 3 yr olds fault that they smell like pee and smoke. they need the same hugs, and even the jcrew pants i bought the day before can be washed of it all

crackhead alert

this morning as a 5 yr old boy with autism and i walked to the bathroom he said " i haven't seen you for lots of days when i was at school" my reply " i was on vacation, i went to costa rica for two weeks to celebrate my birthday" his reply "when i am a MAN you and i could go on vacation together.....but when i am a man i will probably have to go on vacation with my mom too so she doesn't get mad"

once back in the classroom i said "(insert name), it is 8:14 in one minute we are going to start working" "my name is not (insert name) i am crackhead" a minute goes by "insert name, it is time to work" ..running around in circles with a toy bin on his head.. "MY NAME IS CRACKHEAD...CRACKHEAD ALERT CRACKHEAD ALERT CRACKHEAD ALERT CRACKHEAD ALERT CRACKHEAD ALERT....can i work to be a crackhead?" "of course, sit down it is time to work"

does watching the biggest loser make anyone else extremely hungry? maybe it is because how hard they are working, or maybe i am just mean and want to eat in front of them

back from CR

We are back from my birthday trip to Costa Rica, it was amazing and now I am 25! We visited Monteverde, Arenal, La Fortuna, Playa Dominical, M-something, San Jose and a few other towns along the way. It was an amazing experience and I am so grateful for a husband that works so hard so we can play so hard!

02/09/10

thoughts on today: does anyone really love LOVE their job all the time?

tivo is not a luxury but a necessary means of time management.
I got home from walking/ice skating Oscar through Parley's Canyon not too excited about my night to find GOLD waiting for me, a new Kell on Earth, 2 Secrets of Aspen, Oprah, Shear Genius and Bad Girls Club!

and why did I think it was a good idea to trek into the gully, because a mother will do anything for their baby, even after calling Nick to tell him that if he did not hear from me by 6 to send a search and ate @#$%^ several times in the first few minutes I did it for love to see that silly puppy slide on the ice and try to go swimming. when he put a little paw into the water and realized how cold it was he growled at it, adorbs! In the next few days when I am sitting on the beach of Costa Rica turning 25 I will have a big bruise on my saddlebag to remind me of these good times!

*i am going to call my own bluff on a previous post, I was watching the nightly news, Chelsea Lately round table, and heard that a woman in the UK found a way to breastfeed her dog, so i am clarifying that i would/will not feed Oskie from my bosom!

true - today

- today i woke up at the time i usually leave for work, and i still left the house wearing matching shoes, took the puppy to daycare, went to starbucks and arrived to work ON TIME how so?
- i got lost and ended up on the west side on my way to pilates, which i go to twice a week
- i had no idea the state of the union was on until oscar changed the channel when he was asking me for a piece of popcorn, which was part of my dinner
- i found a gluten free sugar cookie that tastes like a cookie
- i wore black and brown together in an acceptable way

fear

I have several fears; most irrational. Some that keep me awake at night and some that I only think of when I am doing something mundane.

Today my drive to Pilates was consumed by the fear that Nick and I will turn in to a couple that looks alike. Yes, there is a 1 foot height difference, but it could happen. We could start getting the same haircut, sport matching front butts and wind suits...oh it is so possible.

So that I can sleep tonight I am going to use this outlet to vow to Nick and myself that:

-I will never cut my hair short enough to make people at the gym have to look twice to see if it is an awkward teenage boy or an old woman.
- I will never buy or wear reverse fit tapered leg jeans or a wind suit.
- If I grow an Italian old woman mustache I will promptly take care of it.
- I will never buy us matching hoodless sweatshirts, sunglasses or fanny packs.

that may not cover all of the possibilities..

an article discussing this phenomena http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/11346164

christmas is almost down..

the Christmas decorations are almost put away. The fireplace is the first remodel project that we have completed, i will try and find a before and after to show you.


here is our hot mess of a tree; a hodge podge of ornaments that have been given to us put together as best as they could be my Mama Coffey

and of course the seasonal jar. I bought dozens of boxes of LED lights, with the best intentions to decorate the yard but alas we never got to it. We had amazing wreaths on both doors made by Mama C, candles in the front picture windows, and an assortmant of ball ornaments in some of the trees in the front yard.

Thank you Mom for decorating my house against my will, I loved it! Everyone should have an Italian mother, they always know what is best.

"GTL"

to help you get your "GTL" done, I have four seven day passes to 24 hour. They may give you a 5 minute tour the first day but they don't bother you after that. Let me know if you want one.

*and if you know what Bravo show the Lesbian icon above is from you win a prize

the confessional

On NPR tonight they were talking about confessions so I thought I would start the year off with some of my own.

1. I listen to NPR
2. when possible I brush my teeth in the shower
3. I hate having anything in my nose...enough said
4. My first job was at a bagel place and I would put tons of cream cheese on the bagel of a "skinny" person and barely any on a "not skinny" persons bagel
5. popcorn is an acceptable meal, especially if you add protein (cheese)
6. sometimes at work (looking back on a bad day) I have more patience with the kids that are cuter, cleaner, and whose parents I like more
7. every time I cut into a piece of meat I am afraid of seeing a vein
8. almost every time my Husband gets on a plane, three times a week, I am sure it is going to be the last time I ever talk to him
9. i am one of those moms that take their baby* to daycare just so they can go to pilates and get a pedicure; and when i do work 6 or 7 hours my baby* is at daycare for 11 or 12 hours
10. I spend most of my day worrying about my next meal and the next time I will go to the bathroom (a side effect of Celiac Disease)
11. according to the BMI chart at the doctors office I am on the border of overweight going into obese
12. I think I am a better driver than Nick
13. I plan on getting copious amounts of Botox and saline after my babies (G_d willing)
14. I watch trashy reality shows
15. The View is on my Tivo list; I like the first ten awkward minutes and then turn it off
16. whenever someone tells me I smell good I am always surprised, I think I just assume that I still sweat like I did during puberty and my natural deodorant has failed me

that is enough for now, Teen Mom is starting

Katie, Joni, and Lisa I hope this has entertained you for a few! PiPhiLove

*my furry, four-legged baby Oscar, if it was possible I would take him everywhere in a sling and breast feed him